If only…

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She waited at the corner
Trying not to look around franticly
Waiting
Hoping to see him again
She remembered every detail
The tiny wisps of hair along his forehead
Dark blue eyes
The hint of his strong jawline under that cute scruffy beard
His confident stride
Maybe she’d get up the nerve
To say hi
Smile at him
Maybe he’d smile back
Like she thought she’d seen a glimpse of that day
She’d been back so many times just hoping
She felt as if she’d been waiting forever

If only she knew…

He was already there
Afraid to move
Watching her
The way the sun played upon her red-gold hair
Her face as she said hi to strangers passing
Maybe they weren’t strangers
it lit up the sky when she smiled
He was so nervous
That first day he saw her he had froze
He thought she’d smiled at him
But it may have been someone else
No way to be sure
But he liked to think it was all for him
How long would he wait?
Could he break his shyness and try to talk to her?
His feet were pasted to the sidewalk

If only he knew…

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THE QUEEN OF HELL

 

Obsession

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you don’t know how many times
I’ve watched you walk past that window
how many times I wish
you would come outside
and say hello
just smile at me
let me know it’s all ok
but every day it’s the same thing
you continue to ignore me
like you always do
its agonizing
completely frustrating
how can you not understand
my true feelings?
maybe tonight will be the night
maybe you’ll feel as much pain as I felt
when you broke my heart
when you rejected my advances
maybe
once the knife pierces your skin
your eyes glaze over
you’ll realize how much I really love you
I always have
and then you’ll be mine
Forever

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The Queen of Hell

unrequited reapings

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Frazzled

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it’s all too much
I can’t seem to make heads or tails of it
why does everything have to be so final?
there are just too many raw emotions going through me right now
nothing makes sense
my head hurts from all the tears
and I’m hungry
I haven’t eaten anything today
I can’t sleep either
I’ve tried
I’m so exhausted
my body feels as if it’s worn to a frazzle
but the Sandman has disappeared
he’s such a bastard
never around when you need him
the wind seems to be blowing relentlessly outside
the song from my windchimes is a strange comfort
I wonder if she’s stopping by to say hello?
and now it seems as if someone is knocking at my door
it is my darling Reaper
his cold embrace offering little comfort
as my keening continues

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The Queen of Hell

 unrequited reapings

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Exsanguination

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I love the feel
of steel
the sharpness
as it flows
swiftly
across your flesh
the brightness
pooling
dripping
sanguine fluid
lifeblood
beautifully red
staining
your milky white
skin
chest heaving
your blue orbs
staring
your last breath
coughing
choking
music to my ears

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The Queen of Hell

 unrequited reapings

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Afterglow

the scent of you
lingers on my flesh
hours
after you’ve gone
it makes me
almost high
from the heavy
aroma
I cannot bear
to cover myself
for fear it would
mask the fragrance
and so
I lie here still
drenched
in your essence
warmed
by the afternoon sun
beaming through the window
and dream
of your return

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THE QUEEN OF HELL

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One Of These Days

for two years I was your puppet
always there when you needed me
I’d do anything for you
I stood up for you
supported you
always had your back
against all the haters
you inspired me
motivated me
showed me I could be so much more
than I realized
but now you’re gone
like a ghost
disappeared
vanished into thin air
without barely a word
for months
and it makes me wonder
if I ever really mattered to you
at all
but I still love you
I know I always will
and one of these days
you’ll regret saying goodbye

puppet

The Queen of Hell

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Unfair

all this beautiful music

spinning around in my head

but all I want to hear is your voice

tell me a story

a joke

make me laugh

sing to me

I really don’t care

just talk to me

I love you

you don’t know how bad I miss you

every day

sometimes

I miss you so bad it hurts

and I’m so angry

 because I still don’t know why you left

where you went

or when you’ll be back

if you’ll ever be back

it’s the not knowing that kills me

tossing & turning

trying to sleep

but I can’t

the bed is empty

and I need you here

it’s so unfair

lonely

The Queen of Hell

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