If only…


She waited at the corner
Trying not to look around franticly
Hoping to see him again
She remembered every detail
The tiny wisps of hair along his forehead
Dark blue eyes
The hint of his strong jawline under that cute scruffy beard
His confident stride
Maybe she’d get up the nerve
To say hi
Smile at him
Maybe he’d smile back
Like she thought she’d seen a glimpse of that day
She’d been back so many times just hoping
She felt as if she’d been waiting forever

If only she knew…

He was already there
Afraid to move
Watching her
The way the sun played upon her red-gold hair
Her face as she said hi to strangers passing
Maybe they weren’t strangers
it lit up the sky when she smiled
He was so nervous
That first day he saw her he had froze
He thought she’d smiled at him
But it may have been someone else
No way to be sure
But he liked to think it was all for him
How long would he wait?
Could he break his shyness and try to talk to her?
His feet were pasted to the sidewalk

If only he knew…





Do you see this knife in my hand?

Yeah, I can see that you do ’cause your eyes are bulging out of their sockets.

You really need to stop squirming…well actually you don’t because the more you squirm the tighter the ropes get & the more it cuts off your circulation that causes you more pain which is really all I want.

I want you to feel as much pain as you’ve caused me because I can’t stop thinking about you.

It’s been absolute torture no matter what I do.

I’ve tried cutting you out of my life.

I’ve tried ignoring you.

I’ve tried everything I can to get you out of my head but you keep popping up all over. Every time I turn around there you are so maybe this is the only way.

Maybe if I gouge out your eyes with this knife I won’t be able to see you in my dreams. Maybe.

And maybe if I cut out your tongue I won’t be able to hear your voice in my head anymore.

Maybe…maybe not…but I guess I should give it a shot.

Who knows, it might work.


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I used to love you once
at least I think I did
It doesn’t matter anymore
I don’t understand how you can still behave this way
How can you be so clueless & act like nothing happened?
Do you not remember how you embarrassed me last night?
At the party…in front of our friends
I was completely devastated
Even they were shocked but maybe you didn’t see it
You didn’t even notice I left
This isn’t the first time you’ve done this
You want me to be something I’m just not
Something I never will be
I can’t do this anymore
I’ve been crying all morning
All you can say is I’ll get over it
and laugh it off like you always do
I’m so tired
If you can’t deal with me as I am
Just say so
I’ll leave
But don’t make me pretend anymore
It’ll always turn out bad
Mostly for me

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To Serve, Trust & Obey 18+

The Twisted Path Group

Excitement coursed through me as I fumbled with my garter. Sir had told me last night He was planning something special for us to do tonight…earlier He phoned and instructed me on what to wear. I’d gone to the closet & removed the little black dress He loved and the sky-high Louboutin’s that showed off my legs to their best advantage. I also readied my overnight bag…He’d never asked for that before and curiosity was getting the best of me as I only imagined what He had in store. It made me remember the bag He carried with Him as He left home that morning. I was ready & just re-brushing my hair when I heard the car pull up and then the door open. I gathered my bags and when I reached the front door stopped and stared as He stood there…stunningly handsome in His dark grey Armani suit.


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