Insomnia

insomnia 1

I can’t sleep anymore
every time I try I feel them near me
that slight bump on the bed
whispers in the dark
why do they always wait til now?
I work all day
and get so tired
I just need to go to bed
but they won’t let me
I’ve resorted to lunchtime napping
in my car at the office
otherwise I’d go insane
they don’t seem to reach me there
and no amount of coffee helps
last night was the worst
I could feel their hands all over me
long nails scratching
pulling and tugging
kicking and screaming
crying does no good
I’ve booked a hotel tonight
just to get some rest
the room is so quiet
drifting off to peaceful slumber
sudden explosions in my head
jolt me out of my dream
laughing close to my ear
sends chilled tremors up my spine
they’ve found me again
jumping up & down on the bed
malevolent assholes
I can’t go on
they will never give me peace

insomnia 2

The Queen of Hell

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Waiting

lost

when he’s away I feel lost
it’s like I just don’t even know how to be myself anymore
all those agonizing seconds
minutes
hours
days
just waiting for him to come back
so I can see his face
that smile that touches deepest part inside of me
making me tingle
hear his voice
that amazing low growl
telling me what a good girl I’ve been while he’s away
and how much he loves me
I need to touch him
I need him touch me
soft & lovely
then much rougher
I need him to remind me
who I am
and who I belong to
this is complete torture
I hate waiting
but the rewards will be
sheer bliss

Queen of Hell 3

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One More Day

just one more day
if I survive
one more day
maybe I can get away
I don’t want to die
I want to live
just one more day

it hurts so bad
every minute
every second
he doesn’t care
he thinks it’s funny

can I make it
one more day
through the pain
the lies
the beatings
the screaming
can I?

I think I can
then he’ll be angry
even more than before
if I make it
just one more day
he’ll just keep trying
then maybe I won’t last
another day
just one more

one more day

The Queen of Hell

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